Some Things I Would Like to Have
I have been doing... not so great lately with depression, and the whole general will to live thing, and reasons to get out of bed in the morning and all, plus my observed birthday is around the corner and it struck me that I can't really point people inclined to get me anything to a wishlist with a reasonable amount of things, so mostly just as a theraputic thing, I'm just going to list off everything I can think of that I'd like but don't have, without any regard to how practical any would be to obtain. And I don't know, if anyone with weird resources and some generosity wants to make some of these happen somehow, that'd be pretty rad too, but it's not why I'm listing things.
- I would like to live in a house again. Where there's more than one room, more than one place to sit, enough space to actually put stuff away, and where there are actually different places to be in that I'm not staring at the same desk when I'm working, eating, and trying to relax. I'd also rather like having some manner of yard/garden that can be properly enclosed, so my cats have a little space with greenery and open sky to relax in, adequate protection from extreme cold and heat, decent internet access, quiet surroundings, and enough extra space for a friend to be comfortable there too, when visiting if not as a full on roommate situation. And a big enough kitchen to really cook properly. And a bathtub I fit in.
- I would like to live in a country where I don't have to worry about being killed by fascists or a horrible disease. Both very real concerns in my life right now.
- I'd like some transition related stuff that's been in limbo for half a damn decade to happen already.
- I would like to have nice, cool/classy looking clothes that fit me and aren't going to fall apart if I look at them funny. Big ol' long coats with huge buttons. A Carmen Sandiego hat. Some nice vitage skirts and dresses. Maybe some corset-adjacent things. Definitely a bra or two that actually fits, and some shoes. Any shoes that aren't this pre-transition pair that no longer fits and are falling apart.
- I'd like a nice desk to work at, with a 2 monitor setup, and proper leg room.
- I'd like a nice comfy chair to go with that desk.
- I'd like enough hard drive space that I'm not constantly juggling installs around.
- I'd like some little handheld custom built raspberry pi thing for playing old games on. Like with some 3D printed case modeled after a first run GBA but with SNES face buttons, a couple spare shoulders, do the whole thing up in some extra girly hot pink and purple color scheme. If I'm real greedy, some little custom software setup where it's super easy to load in new seeds for randomizers without being a whole thing.
- I'd like a big nice table for playing tabletop games face to face with friends.
- I'd like friends I can play tabletop games with on a nice table.
- I'd like a nice little library of physical media. DVD collections of the better Simpsons seasons. My favorite movies. Every book from a favored author.
- I'd like something on my walls. Art, or posters or nice lighting setups. Maybe a mirror? Just not blank space.
- I'd like a well-maintained private swimming pool. And a nice bathing suit to wear in it. And a body that suit fits on.
- I'd like a convenient way to watch movies without having it be a whole thing.
- I'd like a place I could go for karaoke, and friends to go with.
- I guess I'd like a car? Or for really local foot access to everything I'd want to travel to.
- I'd like access to a good grocery store, where prices are reasonable and I can find everything.
- I'd like a general level of financial security where I'm not worried about homelessness or things being shut off or medical needs being unfulfilled.
- I'd like a nice comfy couch like I used to have where I can curl up with a blanket and a cat or two and just be all cozy.
- I'd like enough people who care about things I do creatively for me to bother to really publish things I work on.
- I'd maybe like a little recording space? Soundproofing, a nice camera, lighting, microphone.
- Maybe a 3D printer? Those seem cool.
Yeah, I think that really kinda has everything covered?